Dear Family,
Sorry I couldn't write yesterday, the library was closed the day after Christmas.
It was great to get to talk to everyone! You forget how much you miss your family until you talk to them and remember just how special the relationships you have are. The weirdest part was definitely talking to Becca on the phone. She couldn't say a word when I left and now she's telling me all about the presents she got for Christmas. I got to talk to everybody except for Warren and Mel, so I just left them a quick message on their machine. I will admit I'm kind of jealous Mark got to talk by Skype, but I'm content with the calls.
I don't have much time to write, but I want to just see if I can organize some thoughts that I've been having. So this will probably just be a rambling letter more of like a journal for me, but we'll see how it goes.
I've been thinking about myself as a missionary. I feel like over these past few months I've progressed a lot. I feel I've become a better teacher, but more, that I've grown a stronger character. Since I've been senior companion I haven't had a baptism. That makes about 5 months now. It wasn't a huge challenge to get baptisms earlier on in my mission. Yes they took some work, but they came. It's interesting that now as I feel like I'm becoming the best missionary that I've been, they seem to have stopped. But the reason that I share that isn't to gripe, really it's just because I believe that I've grown from it. I know that the baptisms will come, and during this time I've learned to work hard regardless of whether or not I see success through baptisms. I'm not frustrated with the work or down on myself or my companions, but rather I feel full of faith because I know that soon, we will have someone make that step. Also, I feel that I've learned to take joy in the success of others. Since I've been a district leader I've come to appreciate more of the other missionaries and their success. I have come to find joy in the success of others in my district, and in my zone, rather than becoming frustrated at what is my own lack of baptisms. The work rolls forward regardless of whether or not we have a few hard weeks. I really do feel like I've grown a lot, especially over the past few months. I thank the Lord for the challenges that I've had, because I know that I've grown because of them. Sorry if that sounded like a rant. Sometimes I just have to write things out and it helps me sort my ideas as I go.
I'm grateful for my family, and that everyone is a member of the church and active. I'm grateful that they set the example for me by going on missions. I really to love all of you and I look forward to seeing you again and the nieces and nephews as well. All is going well here, and I'm having a great time. Christmas in Brownsville was a great experience. Oh, and last thing, I asked for a miracle last night that my throat could be healed. Woke up this morning and it didn't hurt. Guess the Lord wants me out the speaking and working, huh. Love you!